I'll take you to the mountains, I will take you to the sea.
I'll show you how this life became a miracle to me.
~ Dar Williams

Monday, December 14, 2009

23 weeks, and she's going to play soccer. I can feel it. Literally.

I'm starting to feel a lot more movement.  She used to have two or three kicking episodes a day (morning, evening, and at about 4:00 am), but now she seems to be doing somersaults, backflips, twirls, and 45-yard punt attempts - nonstop.  Last night she was kicking so hard that I dreamed she kicked a hole through my stomach and accidentally delivered herself.  In my dream I was worried sick because I knew her chances of survival were very slim so early, but also I really liked her so I didn't want to put her back inside (which seemed like a perfectly reasonable thing to do in my dream).  She had black hair and big blue eyes (like Tim's) in my dream.  I think feeling her for the last few days, though at times uncomfortable, has also made me really excited to meet her in the flesh.

I've also started having Braxton Hicks contractions.  The intertubes tell me that these are "usually" painless, but I think they feel like moderately painful menstrual cramps.  When I told this to the midwife who examined me at my last appointment, she reassured me that I wasn't actually feeling any discomfort... hmmm.   They happen five to ten times a day, usually when I'm quite tired or dehydrated.  I'm not worried about them... I think.

In happy news, I haven't given any food back to the good earth for three days in a row.  This is a record for me, and I hope a trend that will keep on trending.  Tim and I are planning to drive across the country Friday, and it would be nice if it could be free of unpleasant episodes.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

22 weeks... and today has been okay.

Three things:

1) I felt good today. Really good. Almost like the old days.

2) Tim is not exactly an effusive person, which isn't to say that he doesn't get excited; it's only to say that he usually shows enthusiasm with a barely perceptible smile, or by slightly raising his eyebrows. He's very quiet about experiencing joy. I did, however, catch him smiling broadly during our ultrasound, and when the doctor told us we'd be expecting a girl. The other day, he wrapped his arms around me and said, "How's my girl?" I said, "I'm okay, a little tired..." and he said, "I didn't mean you... how's my other girl?"

The other day he went to Target to fetch a birthday present for his nephew. He came home with said presents, as well as a stuffed elephant that plays a lullaby and matching blanket for "his girl." I thought it was really cute that he picked out some gifts for her, completely independently from me.

3. I've been begging Tim to let Cami and/or Erin and/or Joanne take a couple pictures of us that we could send out in announcements or frame for the reception. He has been, really, truly, exceesively, adamantly opposed to this idea. He really hates having his photo taken. Today I begged one more time, and he agreed to sit through a ten-minute shoot at... wait for it... Sears (since we had to go to the mall anyway). I think he thought it would be shorter that way... but it was pure and undiluted agony. The waiting room was full of 50-60 screaming children dressed as angels and elves and such. Furthermore, the gal who took our photos seemed to think we were 14 years old and posing for our first prom dates. We finally had to request some conservative poses. She insisted on taking a couple "maternity" shots... which I didn't know existed. We were laughing in 100% of the photos she took, mostly due to the silliness of it all. This is the least silly of the maternity poses (Tim would kill me, really, if I posted the others):